Imagine yourself as a living house. God
comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He
is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and
so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But
presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and
does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is
that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing
out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making
courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but
He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.
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“Give
me all of you!!! I don’t want so much of your time, so much of your talents and
money, and so much of your work. I want YOU!!! ALL OF YOU!! I have not come to
torment or frustrate the natural man or woman, but to KILL IT! No half measures
will do. I don’t want to only prune a branch here and a branch there; rather I
want the whole tree out! Hand it over to me, the whole outfit, all of your
desires, all of your wants and wishes and dreams. Turn them ALL over to me,
give yourself to me and I will make of you a new self---in my image. Give me
yourself and in exchange I will give you Myself. My will, shall become your
will. My heart, shall become your heart.”
C.S.
Lewis, Mere Christianity
Reflection – A
week of excerpts from my favorite Protestants would be grossly incomplete
without a good chunk of C.S. Lewis. I grew up with his books in our family home
(oddly, not the Narnia books, which I only discovered at Madonna House later,
but several of his non-fiction apologetics works—my parents were bookish sorts
who had all sorts of that kind of stuff randomly lying around (hard to believe
that, eh?)).
If
George MacDonald is characterized by a profound spirit of trust in God that was
rooted (in part, at least) with his unusually close and loving relationship to
his father, Lewis’ writings are characterized by a constant struggle with God
and with faith—he had a deep faith which only got deeper as years went by, but
always faith in a God whose ways are inscrutable and painful and where the
surrender to Him is always hard-fought and comes at a high price.
Not
to get too psycho-analytical about it (which Lewis would hate), his mother’s
death when he was nine, and his own rather tortured relationship with his
father no doubt played a part in this. He was also an intensely private man who
above all loved to be left alone to do his study and work. God for Lewis was
always the One who rushed in and upset his plans, would not let him be, forever
upsetting his apple cart and pushing and pulling him in all sorts of directions
that did not suit him one bit.
Lewis
could very well echo the words of G.M. Hopkins in the sonnet Carrion Comfort:
“But why does thou rude on me/lay a lion limb on me?” God was the perpetual
Extreme Makeover: Home Edition host, knocking out walls and adding bathrooms
willy nilly, God the all-demanding Lord, the all-consuming fire, the
all-encompassing Life that demands our life to be utterly taken up into and
refashioned into a communion with His.
Where
MacDonald seems to have taken all of this in a spirit of childlike trust and
that good bracing Scottish spirit of toughness endurance and courage, Lewis struggles,
continually, throughout his writings, with his own humanity and his resistance
to the process.
This
is one reason that Lewis is far more widely read today than MacDonald (Lewis is
the better writer of the two, as well). In our world today, there is a terrible
struggle to trust God, to really affirm in a deep and incarnated way that God
is good and to let Him have His way with us in toto is a Good Thing, in
fact is the One Good Thing there is.
Between
the calamitous global traumas of the 20th century, the widescale
breakdown of family structures and solidity in the post-Christian world, and
the widespread (and alas, very often justifiable) mistrust of any human
authority, there is a great struggle in the hearts and souls of human beings to
truly believe in the goodness of God.
So
Lewis has a great gift to offer us, and in his own grappling and working out of
his own faith struggle shows us a way through it. Namely, God’s plans and God’s
desires for us outstrip our own plans and desires by multiple orders of
magnitude. We want a comfortable life – God wants us to be a blazing fire of
charity in the dark and cold of the world, a torrent of living water in the
desert of life; we want to do as we please and choose what we will – God made
us to enter the dance and communion of the Trinity where all is from and for
and of God, intensely free but never autonomous; we want success on our own
terms and worldly wealth according to our own cupidity – God wants us to be
divine, eternal success stories, and inheritors of the eternal kingdom of
heaven.
So
– we have to choose. God’s ways or ours, God’s plans or ours? But we have to be
clear (and Lewis truly does help us to be clear) - one choice leads to Heaven,
the other leads to Hell (if not repented of by the end), and that’s ultimately all
there is to say on the matter.
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